For this Friday’s Powerful Beauty segment, Tracey Brown of the blog BlingingBeauty.com joins us!
Tracey is more than mildly obsessed with dream creams, perfecting potions and red lipstick. She is a 25 year beauty industry veteran – makeup artist, esthetician, copywriter, editor, blogger, product expert and basic product junkie – who loves waxing poetic over the perfect bronzer as much as she does actually wearing it. Her mission is to broaden the horizons of all women to embrace their ubiquitous beauty, inside and out. Which fits in perfectly with our theme here on Bionic Beauty, right?
When I was invited to do a guest blog about Powerful Beauty, it made me put into perspective what both beauty and power represent. In my world, beauty has been pretty much an external thing — rather superficial I have to admit. Beauty is all about your hair, makeup and fashion sense. So needless to say, I fell into the trap of thinking that my “Power” was defined by how perfect my hair was, my impeccably applied makeup – in particular my signature matte red lips — and my killer 3.5 inch stiletto pumps. My beauty was defined by the latest makeup trend, the latest product launch, and the hottest fashions. My focus was on my exterior and my interior was lacking. I was slowly dying inside.
I looked powerfully beautiful as I strutted in my pumps to my San Francisco corporate office that housed the think tank for most “powerful beauty” retailer in the world. I somehow convinced myself that I was a Powerful Beauty. But the day I had to come to grips with my life, (or lack thereof) I saw something far from Powerful Beauty. I was empty, lifeless, and powerless. I saw nothing beautiful.
It seemed as if in one fell swoop my life changed. I made a stupid mistake and left that “power” Beauty Company, a job I loved for what I thought was an outside promotion and I was screwed. Fired within three months. Then my marriage of about 20 years ended. I went out of town to an esthetics convention and came home to find that my husband had moved my kids into a ghetto, bug-infested apartment and locked us out of the house.
I fell into a depression that left me lying on the sofa for hours as I had no job, hence no insurance, hence no meds. I became a statistic in the public welfare system; I had to be photographed and fingerprinted to receive food stamps so I could feed my kids. Shortly thereafter my mother died and as an only child I was left with the care of my father who had Alzheimer’s disease. I had to change my father’s diapers while he fought with me, not knowing I was his only progeny. Ageism kept slapping me in the face in the job market so I had to settle for making $12 an hour when I knew my worth was many times more than that. But then I cow-girdled up for the sake of three beautiful daughters who had only me to depend — that’s when I learned Powerful Beauty.
My Powerful Beauty is inside of me. And it’s inside of you.
Will I ever give up my big hair, fierce stilettos and matte red lips? Uhh, that would be a NO!
Tracey’s submission completely moved me. I literally got goosebumps. Those of you who know me personally, know that I’m also going through a tough patch in my life, so her words really hit home. I know my Powerful Beauty will keep me strong, and that’s actually what will draw me forward through life- seeking better, improving myself, keeping my self esteem high, and writing & working here on Bionic Beauty harder than ever before.
What did *you* think of Tracey’s contribution?
Catch up on the rest of the Powerful Beauty features. And remember to check back each Friday for another dose of how to Achieve Powerful Beauty!